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Age 10

Proposed clean feed

There has been much dialogue both online and in the media recently about the Governent plan to ensure a 'clean' internet feed by forcing ISP's to filter content prior to the consumer accessing it. This is Wrong ! It should not be allowed to happen under any circumstances.

You forget so much...

While trawling through the photos I also found my eldest sons's health centre record and wow... I had forgotten how little he was (well not really but I'd forgotten fine details)

When he was born on August 10th he weighed 936gms. He wore size 000 singlets, folded in half as nappies and there were no clothes that fitted him. His hospital ankle band (which fell off him) fits around my thumb.

Out of left field

I was poking around in my huge box of photos (it's amazing how many you can collect over 30 years) and I came across something my brother sent me many years ago. I thought it worth posting as it reminds me that, regardless of how he behaves towards me now, he has a heart and it broke for me when JC died.

How big can a family be?

When our daughter came into our lives she did not come alone. Along with her we gained her biological families as well. There is a provision for ongoing contact not just with the birth parents but also with any birth relatives who request contact. With our daughter the adoption order included birth grandparents on both sides as well as her birth parents siblings. Not only did we have to get to know our daughter but we needed to find some commonality with all these people we'd never met and yet we shared such a bond with. We first met J's birth parents over the days we were in Melbourne meeting our new daughter. They presented as a lovely pair of young people who had an extremely mature attitude towards an unenviable situation. They assuaged my fears by telling me they wished only to be our daughter's friend, never to usurp our roles as Mum and Dad.

The unmentionable...

It's my birthday today. I'm 47. Time, I think, to start counting backwards to be sure I avoid the big Five Ooooohhhhhh.

Many of my birthdays have been average, even sad. My Eighteenth was the day I found out I was pregnant, my twenty first came only two months after my eldest son died. My Thirtieth was a massive joke. Husband was supposed to take me out for dinner but he couldn't leave work (as in he couldn't and still can't relinquish control) and then one of the drivers from the company he worked for managed to "invite" himself to stay the night in our spare room and intended to come to dinner with us. This was a nice enough man but he was not a scintillating conversationalist and he was not who I wanted around on my birthday. In the end my husband sent this driver and another employee over to our place to have dinner with me while he worked. We had pizza... It sucked...